the worst feeling is the non-feeling kind
I am falling for a girl who I don’t have feelings for anymore.
All because you couldn’t save me.
Is that so wrong?
I still don’t know much above love. Maybe it’s because I’ve liked so many girls, but have only loved so few. And you were one of them.
I don’t know what to do with all the unsent letters, the drawings, etc. They kept me sane for awhile. I had made so many plans, but none of them seem applicable anymore. We have drifted so far apart; you say we haven’t, but I can feel it with every inch of bone on my body. When we talk, it seems like I don’t know you anymore. Do you still know me? Maybe you’ve changed, or maybe I changed. I don’t want to change, but maybe this time, it’s the best thing to do. Maybe you were right, we were never close to begin with. Maybe I had misinterpreted everything. I acted like a fool in front of everyone, in front of your friends and in front of mine. & in front of you. & maybe they were right. I should’ve seen the bigger picture, but I was way too blind.
Here’s a tip: Next time, watch your words. The last thing you’d want to do is break someone else’s heart the way you broke mine. It is not a pretty sight.
I am neither mad or depressed right now. I just feel apathetic. & it was the one feeling that I was trying to avoid all this time, but it looks like you beat me to it. Isn’t it the worst feeling in the world?
I bet you wouldn’t know.
